Can I just get real petty for a second though? I am down to a 32A cup guys. Between two children and a lot of weight loss, my boobs literally look like two, sad, deflated balloons. I had to buy a training bra yesterday. There was so much shame and self loathing in my heart as I was handing the nice lady my debit card.
I HATE that I have worked so hard to be at such a great point in my life and something as stupid as my boobs can make me unhappy with the way I see myself.
My next point is why? Why on Earth am I letting something so dumb get me down?
I have no answer for you. Maybe it's the Victoria's Secret commercials that play every 7 minutes. Maybe it's things like this ecard circulating Pinterest.
I know that it is ludicrous to be so bummed about my boob size. I understand completely that I am so, so blessed, but when there is so much pressure to have a nice body, losing weight just isn't enough. Now we as women have to be skinny with abs, a great butt, killer legs, a ripped back, but not too ripped, a thigh gap and nice, perky boobs.
I am here to tell you that I, as a normal person, have none of those things. I have a c-section flap, loose skin, sad balloon boobs, stretch marks from my neck to my knees and there is no way in hell I will ever have a thigh gap, even though I bust my butt everyday to live a healthy life for me and my family.
When will my best be enough though?
Body image is such a bitch. You think, "oh, if I just lose 10 pounds, I will feel so much better about myself." So you lose that 10 pounds and then there is something else that you pick out that is "wrong".
Can we just say screw you to all of the expectations to look a certain way?
I am here on this Little Friday link up to tell you, I have tiny boobs and you know what, I am going to work to accept that, because Jesus has blessed me in so many other ways.
Do I still feel bad about my training bra? Yes. But I am going to try really hard to focus on how far I have come and not what I "lack".
Keep kicking ass ladies!
All My Love,